Settling-Rewind

My gosh, I have quite huge updates. I’ve started working already, actually just entering my second week. So far, I’ve been enjoying my new job, the company, and the people I’m working with, a whole lot. Of course, I need to adjust myself here and there, but there’s no boundary to learning and I’m enjoying every part of it. It’s good to feel like all my wheels are running properly.

I’ve moved to the new house in Yishun last weekend. Renting the whole house and living with my little sister is definitely better than living with complete strangers.

I’m too tired to write about all the details since my last entry. But I can tell you that I start to feel like I’m home. Thanks to my cameleon sense of adaptability.

Can’t wait til end of January! and you’ll see why.

Once upon a rooftop deck

Today I sat for hours, til my bottom hurts. I saw the cable cars crossing the harbour, til they twinkled colorful lights at night. The tall construction cranes were lit up brightly, slowly they moved left and right. Small ships were floating still during the day, at night, they turn on their lights and set to the sea. Following behind, a gigantic cruise ship in its festive lights, finally leaving the harbour after dark. Couples were caressing and embracing. Kids were being kids, running around, crying for attention from their parents who were busy chit-chatting with their relatives. Others were busy taking pictures, showing off what they know to their foreign colleagues. Tired shoppers were taking a break from their full-day activities. While I watched closely, from light to dark, as all things were running through my mind.

What if.
What if.

What if I given up on me and all the what-if’s :X

just kidding.

Clutch down, Foot on the break, Gear #1

As slowly as it may seem, life has finally moved forward; in the right direction, I hope. I’m not expecting anything quicker, although my bank savings has been sending me the creep, impatiantly glaring at me, waiting for the $$$ transfusion. I will start the new job soon, and one can only hope that it would be enjoyable enough for me to stay there for at least a year. I’ve also signed the contract for the new house, put down my deposit, and now I just have to wait until our actual moving-in.

I thought I had been careful enough not to purchase too many new stuff, since I know that I have to move out soon. But golly, now that I look around me, it’s quite impossible to make a single trip to the new place. Correction, it’s definitely out of the question. I guess I’ll have to deal with it later.

On another note, Bf told me that he’ll probably stick to his original plan to visit me in mid/late January, as opposed to make another trip this December. I never told him that it were up to me, I would beg him to stay with me as long as he could. But I’m not God. I don’t create miracles, and I can’t direct people’s minds. So I wouldn’t. But it doesn’t mean that I don’t care.

I’m taking my dose of life wisdom, one day at a time.

Weekend Note

After going back-and-forth between my agent-owner-their agent-and me, I think we finally come to an agreement. Gosh, I really want the last unit I went to view, and apparently there’s another contender on the other side of the line. After raising our rent offer, the owner decided to take it. But until I sign the actual contract and put down my deposit, I don’t think I can rest my heart still. Apartment hunting is quite intense, no?

On another note,

I only want people to be happy. It’s frustrating when I can’t seem to make them. Is everything I do so disappointing? Yet I am still trying my best to cope with life.

Apartment Hunting Day 2

Omygod.. I’m so tired I could die. Okay, maybe not, I’m just saying what my two feet are telling me.

Two units in Ang Mo Kio, both are not on the lift-level, so forget that. Geez, wasting my time. Another one is in Potong Pasir, which is very close to where my sis is staying now. The only thing is that there is no air-con at the moment, but the agent told me that it can be arranged with the owner. Can I count on agents and owners to hold on to their words? -_-

Tomorrow, I have two job interviews, and another possible viewing.

… Suddenly, I need an extra pack of mental charger.

*dead

Apartment Hunting Day 1

Tireddddddd….. and it was relatively disappointing.

So I went to see 4 places today. All are HDB flats, since, you know, how the heck can we afford to rent a condo? Might as well wait until I get employed so we can qualify for the mortgage and get our very own condo. Right?

Anyhow, the first place I looked at @ Chai Chee, was pretty decent and clean. Minimally furnished, but has all the essentials we need. That’s good. I likey. The only drawback, is that the common bathroom doesn’t have a seated toilet. No likey. But definitely keeping this one under consideration.

The second place @ Haig Road, was not in move-in condition. The owner just bought it, and the government is still working in remodeling the bathroom, so they said that there will be people who will enter the house and work on it. While they were telling me all this, I made a mental note: “BIG NO NO. NEXT!”

Third place was also at Haig Road, only a different building. But as soon as the agent told me that the unit is not on the lift level, I lost my enthusiasm, and so ready to see the next one. Not to mention, the place was rather… I don’t know.. stuffy? No likey.

The last place was at Marine Parade, on walking distance to Parkway Parade. I likey. But only have air-con in one of the two bedrooms. No likey. So, forget that.

I have 3 more viewings confirmed on Friday, and will call more agents tomorrow morning.

Now I just want to rest my feet……………

A week-worth of update

My two friends from back in The States came to visit Singapore on the weekend. They both had lived here before, so they pretty much know all the places already. We were so busy indulging all the food, that we hardly had any chance to breathe, really. From Kolo Mee, Founder’s Bakut Teh, Takopochi, Kue Tu Tu, Steamboat, Carrot Cake, Char Kway Tiaw, Long Beach Seafood, Hainan Chicken Rice, etc, etc, etc.. I can’t even remember what I ate. hoho. In the period of a few days, mind you. Just thinking of all the sam-chan I must’ve gained give me a headache already. Oh, and we went to take pics at the photobox @ CineLeisure. cute, eh? On Friday night, we checked out St James Power Station. Pretty neat, but really random crowds, so we went home kinda early. Saturday night, we went to Oosh @ Holland Road. Verry very cozy open space lounge/bar/restaurant with lush-and-green/relaxing/romantic concept. This is quite the place to get chummy with your significant other. Haha. *winky wink*

I met an old friend from college and her sister (with the hubby), who I also friends with. She has a baby daughter of 10 months old. Doe-eyed, chubby, and quite a curious-george. She’s extremely social and shy is definitely not in her dictionary. Much like her mommy, I must say. Arghh.. cuteness overload.

I got my medical check-up report from Raffles Hospital. Of course, all is good. All I got left to do is to pick up my Long Term Pass tomorrow. So, that’s good. Another one down, millions to go.

Bought a pretty black skirt from m)phosis today. Really cute and form-flattering……. *Note to self: Will wear it for date with bf later.

Last but not least, I’m still looking for a job. Oh, and totally hooked on kaya toast. My day isn’t complete without a serving of kaya toast and coffee. Ah, the simple joy in life. Yeah, yeah, I’m quite easy to please.

Soooo.. that’s pretty much it.

I – think.

Oh well, for now, anyway.

And the journey continues..

One Saturday Afternoon..

I went to an afternoon Mass today. No, no dragging involved. Just a little voice in me, telling myself to go, even without Mom’s deadly glare. And even though this is not the first time that I’m going back to Church after a hiatus, I must say that it is definitely the first time I had the initiative to do so in a long while.

It wasn’t exactly an eye-opening emotional journey, but strangely enough, there was a point when I was undoubtedly on the verge of crying. I can’t quite explain why, just a sudden burst of emotion hit right into me. Perhaps it was the invincible embrace I received. or perhaps my female hormone was acting up.

A Toast-y Idea

Kaya spread on a toasted bread stacked in between, a semi-melted butter. A simple traditional everyday-almost-staple breakfast item ala Singapore. And, not to mention, someone else’ cash machine.

A conversation started over a cup of oh-so-heavenly-good coffee (which taste is comparable to a coffee-c, or just plain ol’ coffee-o.. gahh, i can’t decide). How did we miss such simple idea that can potentially finance the education of our great great great grandchildren? Let’s not forget the pasteurized milk turned into a 5 freakin US bucks frozen yogurt. Pinkberry (the US version of Korean borned Red Mango) is no longer a brand. It’s simply a new vocabulary.

Maybe I should start thinking about it in the shower. I dunno, a martabak with a twist? as if the martabak itself isn’t twisted already.

Now that my sweet tooth has been spoiled by the local coffee (c or o, or with milk), there’s no turning back to Starbucks or Coffee Bean. Yeah, sure occasionally for the ambiance, or the free wi-fi, or the comfy sofa. Ahem… actually, maybe those are the things they’re actually selling us. But anyhow, I’m sure that the Americans would’ve freaked out by the idea of evaporated milk (instead of the non-fat, sugar-free, soy, and all the likes they were given options of), if not for the massive amount of pure-granulated sugar (instead of splenda or any substitute sugar of your choice). Yeah, but we still love our Frappuccinos with whipped cream.

Point is, all the pleasures in the world are relatively sinful. But sin, much like beauty, is in the eye of the beholder. Don’t you think?

Welcome Back, Old Soul

So I’ve decided to rekindle my love to blog once again. As you already know (or perhaps not), I abandoned my old journal months ago with quite a sad final note, a grim reflection of my present state at the time.

Many have happened since then. Dramatic as it may sound, I have moved far far away from my heartbreak, both physically and emotionally. Forgiving is not the easiest thing to do, and yet it is the most rewarding and gratifying. I may not have mastered the art of forgiveness, but I have done my part in pure sincerity.

The most important thing is that I have rediscovered the true meaning of love. Once tainted with lies and deceit, this same heart has learned to love completely again, and it would like to thank you for leading me back to my happiness.

Indeed, the greatest thing in the history of human kind is to love and be loved. I can only hope that this one will last to eternity.

I am no longer living in The States. I have moved back closer to home about a month ago. A decision I have thought carefully not to mistake logic with irrationality. Filial duty of being the eldest daughter has drawn me home, and I accept my fate and its consequences with all my heart. I am still missing all my friends, the lifestyle, and the place I called home for the past seven years, everyday. Above all, I miss the person who pulled me back up and place my heart where it is today. But I never regretted my decision. I will meet each and everyone again one day. I will meet you, love, very very soon, because I believe in us ♥.

As for old friends who I promised myself to, to meet with once I have arrived here, you just wait! To my little sister, who I’ve been bugged ever since I got here, I am so excited that we will finally spend quality time together; much love and respect to you.

Having said that, let the new chapter begins.